Veintiséis Semanas

The belly!

That's twenty-six weeks for you non-Spanish speakers . :-P That makes my due date only fourteen weeks away. My belly is starting to look a bit more round and I think I am starting to look more pregnant than fat. Right now, I don't have too many fears. Besides the basic, "What if something goes wrong?" fear, my other fears are pretty irrational. For example, I'm worried that I am not going to know when it is time to go to the hospital. Like, I will keep ignoring the signs and then be stuck at home, by myself, having a baby. And haven't talked to too many mothers about this, but I am pretty sure you can tell when it's time...they do seem to know in all the movies at least. Also, I'm worried that I'm going to have a screaming, crying baby and have no clue what to do to make it better. I do believe that being a mother is something that comes nature, so I should be able to figure it out. As far as delivery goes, I don't really have fear of it yet. I believe it is a natural thing that women are meant to do, so I shouldn't have too much trouble with it. I plan on having my baby naturally without an epidermal. I do hear several birth "horror stories" but I do not let myself become affected by them. I understand that every birth, every women, and every baby are different, so what happen to someone else is most likely not going to happen to me. I believe as long as a women goes into labor with a positive attitude and belief in themselves, they can have a successful, natural birth. And I do know it's going to be painful, but I believe it's a positive pain and will be well worth it. We will have to wait and see though when it gets closer to the day and when reality sets in if my positive attitude can remain.

I have the majority of baby stuff I need, for now. I have just begun stocking up on diapers and wipes. Though the Amazon.com Amazon Mom program, I get diapers and wipes for 30% off through the Subscribe and Save. I got my first shipment of 276 Pampers' diapers for $30.73 and two boxes of 350 Seventh Generation wipes for $8.32 each. I will continue to receive a shipment every month now. I figure that it is best to stock up now so it doesn't seem as expensive later. Last week, Omar and I went baby clothes shopping. We didn't get too much, we don't want to end up with a lot of clothes that will never be worn, but we did get some outfits. It was so cute watching him pick out outfits and get excited about certain ones. He really doesn't show his emotions very much so seeing him excited like he was made my heart melt! Omar's sister was talking about wanting to have a baby shower for us. I hope she does. It isn't even so much for the gifts, I actually forgot that was one of the main reasons to have a shower, I just want to celebrate the baby! It would also mean a lot to me, because of the language barrier his family and me don't talk much, so it's nice to see that they do approve of me and the baby.

As far as I know, the baby is doing great. She is very active and loves beating up on my uterus, which is about the size of a soccer ball by the way. I love to feel her move, I find it incredibly adorable and it always makes me smile. Omar has only gotten to feel her once. I know it will be easier for him when she gets bigger. From what I get from my doctor, my uterus seems to be expanding correctly. My next doctor's appointment is on September 29th. I get to take my glucose test. After that appointment, I will start going every two weeks. And then in another ten weeks, I believe, I start going weekly to the doctor's.

It is crazy how quick, yet how slow everything seems to be going. It does seem I have been pregnant for quite some time now, but knowing that I am going to be a mother in a few months seem a little quick. It's such a big life change, and ready or not, here it comes. I am very excited and I cannot wait to hold my daughter and to see the smile on Omar's face when he first sees her. I am actually started to tear up as I type this, I blame the hormones. Pregnancy is such a great scapegoat by the way. I am trying to be patient because after these next few months our lives are going to make a permanent, dramatic change. I think we will do great, but I do worry. Monday marks our one year anniversary, which means I have been pregnant for more than half our relationship. It seems like we have been together so much longer though. Speaking of our anniversary, we don't have too much plan. I plan to after class Monday  and stop up at Whole Foods and get some stuff for chocolate covered strawberries and maybe get a mini cake. I figure we'll probably go out to eat dinner and then probably spend the rest of the night at home.